01/05/2004

acommontopic.

yesterday was an extremely stupid day. sorry yanshuo. and sorry don. for being so idiotic.

was forced by yanshuo to go to the debating championships. i think i'll join debating in JC. it's so interesting. but then again, i get so nervous whenever i do any public speaking. strangely, i like it though. doesn't it feel good, having a whole audience hanging onto your every single syllable and word? i sound horribly egoistic now huh. i think the debating championships was quite fun, though i didn't really enjoy it for some other reasons. hope ri beat aci. didn't stay for prize presentation.

everyone's talking about john. now it's my turn. i pity john. i try to be nice to him but it's so hard to be nice because of peer pressure. it's almost like people expect me to be horrible, so i HAVE to be horrible to him. at the same time, i'm afraid of him. like i said before, i think he doesn't really live in the same world as we do and who the hell knows what goes on in his world. and i'm afraid of the fact that he's gay as well. restrictions imposed on us in OUR world might not apply to HIS world, and we never know what other funny things he might try to get a piece of us next time.

sometimes, the world around me dims and the colours fade and everything looks grey and miserable. i fall down again and wonder if it's worth getting up.

next week is gonna be so bad. physics test, SS test, a math and e math tests. urrgh looking forward to 'sing to the dawn'. hope it'll be good! and ORA walk-a-jogathon. we're gonna have so much fun fooling around with lammo and watching G show off his buaya-ing skills man. HAHA.

anyway i have to go do my history assignment now. been doing it slowly over 4 days now. today it'll be the end! i'll finish it! seeya.

by the way, go to my LJ please.

kenny wrote this at 11:15 a.m.