04/05/2004

moreambitions.

a few entries ago, i was talking about my ambitions or rather, my dreams. have a couple more to add:

4) be a world-famous lawyer

5) become an SAS (Special Air Service) trooper

i dunno what inspired number 4, just struck my mind and thought it'd be interesting? oh yeah maybe the visit to the courtroom that day on the learning journey inspired it. i really admire lawyers and the skills needed to become a lawyer. or rather, the skills needed to become a GOOD lawyer. i'll see on this.

number 5 is clearly inspired by rainbow six. reading it now, and i think the SAS is freakin' cool! and also because of a certain KAW-1. nevermind, not many will know what i'm talking about (tsk tsk tsk lowell). tango down, tango down! but extremely unlikely. so ignore this one.

now there's a whole new pile of homework, and i feel demoralised just LOOKING at it. urgh must tell myself, tackle one by one, one by one, one by one... and it'll be done eventually! and two tests to mug for. this week sucks. i feel like staying at home and just sleeping and sleeping until everything's over.

i just realised something about myself. whenever i'm stressed, i tend to dream more. i retreat more and more into little blissful fantasy worlds i create for myself and slowly severe all connections with the outside world. i can create a safe, impregnable refuge bubble for myself no matter where in hell i am and what i'm doing, BUT my concentration becomes VERY horrible. extremely dangerous, especially during lessons or while doing homework. i think lowell and yongjin have noticed this a number of times.

muggin' time. I HATE MUGGING. seeya dooods.

kenny wrote this at 6:50 p.m.