23/07/2004

with the lights out!

alright i haven't blogged for so, so long. i'm supposed to say sorry, i guess? so, sorry.

just bought 'by the way' by RHCP just now. i've been wanting to buy it for so long, i really like RHCP. i've been wondering and wondering and wondering whether to buy 'by the way' or 'in utero' by nirvana, but in the end, i decided on 'by the way', because well, 'in utero' wasn't in stock.

i'm listening to it all the time now, but i guess it's only gonna be a matter of time before i revert back to 'nevermind' by nirvana. but 'by the way' will still be one of my favourites!

oh after i bought the album, i realised that i had no money in my ezlink card AND no money to top it up. so i had to resort to using coins. how much is it? i don't know, i just put 50 cents into the thing. was i cheated? or did i cheat?

common test results are almost all back now, i think i got pretty much what i expected, though not what i'd have liked to have gotten. 8 points so far, if i get a1 for chem. it all depends on chem now! and i'm starting to look at my calender next to my study table more often, checking the number of weeks before the prelims. these few weeks are passing so fast huh? i'm gonna start panicking soon.

now what do i expect from my prelim and 'o'level results? i just want to do the best that i can, which is hopefully 6 points. if i cannot make it, i'll be happy with 8. actually, i don't really have to go to rj. i'll really, really be perfectly fine with vj. i'll still be happy. it's just my parents, and my whole extended family's expectations of me that makes me pressured to go to rj.

that's wrong isn't it? but it's influenced me somehow that i'll feel really disappointed and dismayed if i can't get into rj. sigh. when i have kids next time, i'll make sure i give them no pressure whatsoever, and just let them develop as much as they can while i help them along. okay, maybe a little pressure. ahh heck it's gonna be very long before i have kids anyway, why am i bothering.

oh yeah oh yeah, on thursday (i think) lammo darren and i went to crystal jade for lunch! when i go there with my parents i don't really care about the prices and just order what i want, but this time it was so different, checking every single price and adding in GST and service charge and whatever shit to find out the total cost and lammo whipping out his handphone to use the calculator. the people eating there must have thought that we were a bunch of crazy, idiotic shitters. but it was so good! though it costed a bomb by our usual lunch-cost standard.

okay now, should i buy 'blood sugar sex magik' by RHCP or 'in utero' by nirvana next? ahh, sigh. maybe i should just save money and buy some more meaningful stuff.

and i forget just why i taste

oh yeah, i guess it makes me smile

i found it hard, it was hard to find

oh well, whatever, nevermind

must go study now! you know, it's amazing just how MUCH more work i can do when the damn computer isn't on. but it's just a habit for me to turn it on. i really must break that habit. with the comp in front of me i can spend 1 hour on the same page in the bio textbook. when it's not on, i could have done about 3 chapters in that time.

seeya!

kenny wrote this at 8:32 p.m.