18/09/2004

guess who's back.

i'm BACK.

i haven't come here for so so so long, gosh it feels so weird to be blogging now after spending so long forcing myself not to blog. kinda unnatural. this place has become VERY VERY stagnant, i bet noone comes here anymore. haha oh well, i'll continue to blog until the 'o's come uncomfortably close.

so, i've been mugging for and doing my prelims over the past 2-3(?) weeks, if you didn't know already. i have a very bad feeling about my prelims. i think i'll do worse for prelims than i did for common tests. i'm really so scared, i screwed up so many questions that i should have known how to do except that i was panicking as i did them.

if there's no moderation at all, i think it's almost impossible for me to get the 6-7 points needed to go to rj. even if there's moderation, i still might not meet the cut-off point. sigh what am i going to do... i'm so afraid of getting back my prelim results and seeing double digit L1R5s. i know it's not very nice of me to think this way, but i hope that everyone dies like shit for the prelims so there's a lot of moderation and i have a bigger chance of getting 6-7 points. sigh.

it's sad, isn't it, that i've started to think that not being able to go to rj is the end of the world.

on a brighter note, i FINALLY got to watch 'the last samurai'. i didn't watch the movie when it opened in cinemas for reasons that i've forgotten, though i had really really wanted to watch it. then a few weeks back my dad bought the dvd but i still had no time to watch it. i like that movie! it's a bit slow at times, but the setting and the whole movie in general was just so beautiful and touching. sigh i wish i was a samurai :) no more ninja dreams. ninjas are bad people who try to kill samurai.

anyway, i'm going to rest for a while now, then i'd better go study a little for the MCQs and the papers i have left. i need to pull up my grades. sigh, seeya.

kenny wrote this at 12:01 p.m.