11/02/2005

gong xi fa cai!

okay lah okay lah i'm updating. and sorry, updating is no longer a habit for me, but i PROMISE i'll try my best. i seem to be saying this every entry huh, hahaha.

anyway i really, really really really miss ri a lot. i just feel that the fun i can have with new friends in rj can't compare to the carefree and reckless nonsense that we all could do in ri.

like today i went to SONS' (yanshuo) house for a 4T reunion, and i felt so good, like i was back home once again and i didn't have to act differently and can just be my normal uncontrolled self with people who understand me. sighh i doubt that i'll make better friends in my entire life than the friends i have made in ri these 4 years.

i guess rj friends will be fine (WHAT IF I CAN'T STAY IN RJ, SHIT SHIT SHIT), i mean like i still can have fun with them and talk to them and stuff, but i'll never grow as close to them as my ri friends, especially those from 4t. there's this bond that grows between guys forced together for large numbers of hours with no other company but each other IN THE ABSENCE OF GIRLS (serious!), which makes these guys grow so close and comfortable with each other that they trust each other completely and help each other out as much as they can in times of trouble. like in the army! all the soldierly brotherhood or whatever.

i never wanted to leave ri!! sighh but must move on, and just be happy that i HAVE made such good friends that i'll be able to rely on for the rest of my life (i really hope so). if i have time, maybe i'll write some tribute thing to every single guy in 3t/4t on this blog, personal tributes! should i should i? hmm.

ohhh yah by the way, i made it into sailing!! i'm a sailor! lowell still can't seem to get used to the idea that we're team-mates now. heehee. that is, if i can stay in rj, URRRRGHH. no question about it for lowell, if he can't stay, NOBODY can.

and o level results are coming out soon. arghhhh i bet i won't be able to sleep the night before, probably the night before that night too, and i won't be able to eat breakfast on that day or everything will come shooting out as i get nearer and nearer to JUDGEMENT TIME and nervous-er and nervous-er. very SCARED. HOW! i wish i'd studied harder man, sigh sigh sigh.

anyway it's getting late, my parents are waiting for my bro to come back from chinablack or something so they can sleep in peace, HAHA. i have very weirdly protective parents, if you didn't know. seeya!

happy chinese new year!

kenny wrote this at 10:44 p.m.