24/02/2005

finest hour.

here's another entry, quite fast right? if not fast enough tell me hor.

there has only been one thing running through my mind these days, i think most of you would know what it is. damn, the o level results are gonna be released next monday. i wish they'd (the people at moe) release it tomorrow or something, i just wanna get over it ONCE AND FOR ALL so i can stop worrying about it, whether i do well or do badly.

i've already thought through my options and possible scenarios, but i know that no matter how much i calculate probabilites and stuff, it still won't prepare me for the moment when i stand in front of the teacher's table and take my result slip in my hand. gosh this is what i hope to see:

A ONE
A ONE
A ONE
A ONE
A ONE
A ONE
A ONE
A ONE
B THREE (chinese)

if i see this, i'll just scream and run around wildly and while hugging people and gibbering insanely.

shit, anyway i'd be relieved if i get 7 or 8 points, cos it'd mean that i can stay in RJ, but i'd only be really satisfied and happy with 6 points. and what would i do if i did badly (9 or more)? i really don't know, i don't want to think about it. i'd just die on the spot.

i'm half anticipating, yet dreading monday now. like i'm anticipating the sheer joy and insane happiness i'll get to feel if i do well, yet dreading the possibility that i won't get to feel that joy and happiness. damnit, i want to get over it right NOW, i wish OCJ would just call me or something and say 'oh kenny you did just fine, stop worrying about it'. i need some HINT that i did well to ease my mind.

goodness. i feel so stressed and tense these days, thinking about the first glimpse of my result slip. wish me luck yeah. seeya!

i hope my next entry will be a happy one.

kenny wrote this at 8:15 p.m.