25/03/2005
i've become a kaw.
today's good friday. i feel really guilty and terrible for not going for the church services and stuff, but oh well. never mind. i've been trying to make up for it by remembering and appreciating Jesus's sacrifice for us anytime i could today, but i don't think it's enough, huh.i think life in rjc sucks. most of the time throughout every school day i'm just dragging myself along and forcing myself to pay attention during lectures and tutorials while keeping myself alive by looking forward to idiotic stuff like talking kok or going home to have a shower, or even going for TRAINING, which is extremely extremely weird for me.
and i have no interest for any of the subjects that i'm taking. okay fine maybe a little for math, just a LITTLE, heh. i find that i'm learning all this shit just for the sake of getting the widest range of course options in uni and also because trip sci gives me the best chance to get 4 As.
'2 years isn't THAT long, i can tahan this, i can i can!' i realise that i've been thinking that to myself a lot lately.
and the thing that makes me really sick is that i know life is going to be like that from now on, it's not gonna be like that for only 2 years. maybe there'll a break for 2 years (NS), then it'll be back to this shit. my carefree days of completely innocent jabroni fun are really over.
i'm sorry for kaopehing, and for sounding so morose and idiotic. happier stuff now okay!
the intro at the side of this blog is really outdated, i'm gonna update it now. nothing much has changed though, i still hate veggies.
i never get sick of listening to queen's 'radio ga ga' and the who's 'pinball wizard'. ohh i LOVE these 2 songs, they are the pride and joy of my music library =)
sigh i hope more people read this, i AM sorry for not updating as often as i've done for the last few years. things have changed, see.
seeya all! try not to be as unhappy as i am yeah? byebye...
kenny wrote this at 10:20 p.m.